troubled heart being repaired

There is a gigantic bare spot right in the middle of my heart that I think God has started to cultivate and care for. It has been burned, and kind of reminds me of what the forest looks like after a huge forest fire. And I can sense that He is healing it, with His love and His time. I want everyone to experience that healing. And I want to see people like God views his creation. He loves us. He wants us to love him back. But He does something that we are not quite capable of mastering, and that is love without expecting anything in return. He gives us the burden/responsibility/privilege of free will. Basically, He loves us without attachments. It is our choice to love Him is return or to do our own thing. And His love never wavers. His love doesn't change because His word says He is Love. He won't love us less if we screw up or love us more when we "do good".

And to see people, many of whom are unloveable (include me in that), with that kind of love is truly allowing Christ to live through us. I really want to see people that way. It is very hard for me because i am selfish. But it is very damaging to God not to do so. As Christ-followers, we are the representative of God and His love, grace and mercy. The "GOOD NEWS" is not a message of you being damned, condemned, sin-filled, blah blah blah. The message is that you can be set free from your past. You can be at peace with yourself, your past, and your God. You go from the enemy camp to God's dinner table as family. What a contrast! You are free to live life. You are free to love people and you are free to love God and have a personal relationship with Him, through His son, Jesus.

Life is empty without that freedom. The love of God can fill you up and set you free. And the love of God is the only thing that can fill that void in your heart. And once its filled, I believe God starts to work on that patch. He takes the rubble of a life that we do our best to build on and He transforms that into something greater than we could ever do on our own. He wants to build something great. Do you want to be free to let Him do that?